Tuesday, 15 March 2011

Woah, Major derailment !

Well, I'm back.  I never thought that this would happen to me but I've come off the rails BIGTIME in the last ten days or so! 

I stuck with the diet (mostly) but due to a series of ridiculous days at work.  I've been based back in Wollongong these last couple of weeks, and haven't been able to see Leander for way too long.  I have been living in hotels again, and I have been unable to exercise properly.  Crappy treadmill in the hotel gym, been raining outside, can't afford to go to Fitness First or Savvy Fitness.  Boo hoo, poor me. 

Notice the wimpy (mostly) admission about the diet?  That means that I am eating the right foods, but not strictly weighing/measuring portions like I said I was going to.  I've been eating too many snacks - good snacks (ie fruit) but way too much of it.  I never realised that I had an emotional eating side to my personality.  I'm a guy - I don't get the "emotional eating" thing that girls get.  I guess that I understand that now.  I dont eat crap or chocolate or other rubbish.  I eat healthy foods, but waaaaay too much.  I ate three humungus nashi pears in a row yesterday.  I love the damn things but I know I should only eat 1 at the most.   
Hmmm.   I made a promise to myself, Leander, my family & Mish that I would train my arse off and this time I was going to measure my portions exactly.  Guess what?  I have to admit I have _ALLOWED_ things to fail.  I honestly could have done better.  If I _REALLY_ wanted to I could have got up earlier (ie 4 am) to train, or delayed dinner until later in the evening to enable me to get a session in. So I guess that, in reality, I'm full of it.  I am full of good intentions and I didn't have the fortitude to see it through and be a man of my word.  I didn't have the absolute _HUNGER_ to train that I normally have.  I normally am so motivated that everything else can go to hay, I'm going to get my training session in.  

SO there it is.  I am human.  I have always wanted to be the person that people can rely on.  The person that my lady, my family & my friends can absolutely count on to get the job done.  If I can't get the job done for myself, how can I become the man that I want to be so very much?  

Mish's JFDI slogan helped a lot to make me get back on the horse.  I heard a slogan today that motivated me even more than that - You are not dead so you can't quit !  

Sigh.  Well, the self-pity is over.  I'm back into it big time.  I'm sweating like a horse and I feel absolutely great.  I just had a huge long run, kind of like a SSS session, and burned 989 Polars !  Woot !  The manager of the hotel where I am staying is a mad keen runner, and I have arranged to go for a run with him tomorrow after work - I am feeling better already.

Talk about feeling better - I discovered to my great surprise that I have three new followers !  Wow - that's really nice.  Warm welcome to Rosa75, Miss Holly and LanB. 

Kind regards,


1 comment:

  1. Hey, I just found your blog through bloghopping :)

    I hope you have found the strength to get back on track, it is all too easy to slip off, and then stay off.

    It's interesting to read a man who admits he has emotional eating problems. I too thought it was just us women :)

    Good luck, you can do this!